Surrender - not exactly my favorite word. I am a fighter by nature, someone who sticks his flag into the ground and says it is all or nothing. It is victory or death, surrender is not an option.
While that is a good heart attitude to have in certain areas of life, a heart of surrender is appropriate and absolutely necessary at times.
Surrender - cease resistance and submit to an authority.

Open Hand in Surrender

This word and its meaning have been on my mind for quite a while.

Some of you may have read my post “The Struggle” about the constant spiritual war that I am in as a believer.
I've noticed that some of these struggles are in my life because of one reason, I am not fully surrendered to Christ as I should be as a believer.
Too often in my life, I find myself exerting my own opinions and will as to how I would like to see certain aspects of my life worked out.

I’ve had to ask myself the question, am I truly surrendered to Christ in every area of my life? Have I surrendered the future, as well as my hopes and my dreams to Him?
Filmmaking, time, resources, talents, schedule, marriage, relationships, earthly possessions, work, entertainment - is all surrendered to Jesus?

Am I truly fully committed to Him? Is He all that I truly desire? Am I holding on to my above desires, dreams and plans too tightly? Is Christ truly enough or is my heart desiring Christ plus something else? (Psalm 63:1)

For myself personally, I have had to acknowledge that I am not as fully surrendered as I should be in my devotion and submission to Christ. I speak with my lips that Jesus has the wheel, but my actions verified that I have been holding onto the wheel as well. I profess that He alone is all I desire, yet my actions have showcased that this is not always the case.

So Lord, I admit my unwillingness to surrender total control to You when it comes to the direction, plans and future of the life You have so graciously given me. Yet, I realize it is utter folly to hold out on You.
So Lord, I surrender. Not some, but all to You. Strengthen me to live in submission to Your plan each and every day of this life You have given me.
For it is in the name alone worth living for, in the name of Jesus I pray, amen.

I'll be honest, it is scary and freeing to let Christ have control over every area and decision of one's life every day.

Scary, because I am a control-freak and it unnerves me when I don’t have control.

Freeing because I know Christ knows what is best for me and He will never, ever lead me wrong. (Romans 8:28)

The future is bright when it is in God's hands, though that certainly does not mean it will be easy.
The Scripture never promises us that. (John 15:19, 16:33, James 1:2) Yet, it is a non-stop adventure that transforms one more into the likeness of our wonderful and glorious Savior! Whether that be working in filmmaking, or some ministry, the possibility of marriage, and wherever else He may lead my life, following Christ is, as a certain ministry would put it, the ultimate adventure! (Proverbs 3:5-6)

So may I humbly leave my life in the Creator’s hands. May I truly live in the reality that He is enough. May I stop wrestling for control and may I passionately pursue Him and let Him decide how this adventure called life plays out.

I know it is never easy to live fully surrendered to Christ, but oh, how it is so worth it!

How about you? Are you trying to hold onto control in certain areas and aspects of your life?

Allow me to encourage you with one word.


"Submit yourselves then to God." - James 4:7a