Ok, I am not waiting any longer. I can't wait any longer.
I shall go first.
To my readers, I normally don’t write a blog post when I am discouraged or frustrated. I mean, no one does that, do we? Aren’t our blogs and social media supposed to be a trumpet of Christian perfection? Or maybe that’s just a struggle of my own life. For that matter, aren’t our lives supposed to be trumpets of Christian perfection? Struggles, what are those? I mean after all, those happy faces on Sunday morning are always legitimate, right?
Or are they?May I be candid and vulnerable here for a moment?I don’t have it all together and I most certainly don’t have it all figured out.
I’m a broken human being who continues to wrestle with, well, being human. I am imperfect, I can become so easily discouraged, I so quickly forget the truths of God’s Word at times and live in defeat, rather than as a victor.
Be around me enough and I will let you down, sooner or later.
I so desperately want to be just like my Savior, but I fall, oh so short, every single day.I’m not a towering picture of Christian strength, tact, wit, humor and virtue.
I’m rather broken actually.
I still wrestle with temptation and sin.
My selfishness and anger still show their ugly selves from time time.
You see, I’m quite flawed. I am still a work in progress.I’m, well, human.
Oh, does it feel good to be candid and admit this publicly for all to see!
Why do I hold back from being honest that I am a broken, needy, human being who desperately needs the love and grace of God daily?
What is it in the Christian world that causes us to buy $1 smiles from the Dollar Tree® and paste them on our faces all the time?I have to wonder, how many of us are chained by sin, doubt, discouragement, fear, depression and addiction because we are trying to maintain this ridiculous facade of perfection?
How is the Body of Christ supposed to be the Body of Christ when we never allow the Body to support the Body in times of difficulty and struggle? (James 5:16)
Despite the recent book release of “How To Be a Perfect Christian,”
I’m still not perfect. I didn’t meet the standards of the Holiness Progression Tracker 5000.
I’m broken! That’s why I need the Healer! I’m not perfect! That’s why I need the Perfect, Spotless Lamb of God! I was lost! That’s why I need the Savior! I’m weak! That’s why I need the Almighty God! I’m a pathetic sheep who would walk off a cliff if that’s what all the other sheep were doing! I desperately need the Shepherd!I’m human! That’s why I need, yes need, God! (Psalm 84:2)So why pretend to have it all together? I don’t!
Yet, you my reader may say, "Nathaniel, we are supposed to be like Jesus! We are supposed to be perfect!"
Correct. I am not disagreeing with that statement.
I'm just saying our pretense of perfection, just so we appear like Jesus, is not spiritual, it is hypocritical.
Walking into Sunday Service with a smile plastered on my face when I desperately need prayer is not honoring to God.
Brothers and sisters, do I realize what I am doing when I have this attitude and live it out?
I am lying to my brothers and sisters in Christ and putting them in a dangerous position. Whether I realize or not, when I live by pretense, I am encouraging others to live the same way.
After all, how are you supposed to be real about your struggles when I don’t have any? Ha. Like that’s true, cause it’s not.
I’m broken and when I admit this, it allows Christ to work through my brokenness.
When I admit my weakness, it allows Him to become my strength. (1 Corinthians 1:25, 2 Corinthians 12:9)
Yet, as long as I persist stubbornly in my own strength, trying to impress my fellow brothers and sisters, I am setting myself up for failure and am being a hypocrite as well as not loving you all well.
I apologize for the times I may have done this. It is a disservice to you, but most importantly to the One I serve.
Oh, thank the Lord for His forgiveness and that His mercies are new every morning! (Lamentations 3:22-23)
So I boldly stand here and proclaim, I am broken. I struggle. I still wrestle with fear and doubt. I don’t ace every temptation and sin that comes my way.Yet, one thing I do know. My perfect standing before God comes not from my performance or lack of it thereof. Nay, it comes from the sinless and perfect sacrifice of Christ on my behalf. His blood was shed for me and as my Savior and Lord, I stand dressed in His righteousness alone. (2 Corinthians 5:21)
God be praised!
So yes, I am human. I still have a long way to go. Yet, praise the Lord for His promise that He will complete this good work He has started in me for His glory! (Philippians 1:6)
So my dear reader, let’s be real, let’s be honest. Let’s stop faking this perfection and instead carry one another’s burdens. (Galatians 6:2)
Together, through all the stumbling and falling, let’s chase the King in His power and strength!
His mercies are new every morning and His grace is sufficient for this race we call the Christian life! (2 Corinthians 9:8)
So onward and upward for His glory, honor and praise alone!"My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me." - 2 Corinthians 12:9