Cynical or Expectant?

Cynical: Believing that people are motivated by self-interest; distrustful of human sincerity or integrity; doubtful as to whether something will happen or whether it is worthwhile.

Expectant: Having or showing an excited feeling that something is about to happen, especially something good, interesting or beneficial.

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The artist TobyMac released an album entitled The Elements in 2019. It has quickly become one of my all-time favorite releases from Mr. Mac. For that matter, our stop-motion short being released tomorrow is set to the title track of this album.

There is another song on this album the Lord has used to challenge me entitled,
Edge Of My Seat.

Recently, the Lord has been working on me regarding my cynical nature.
I can’t help but agree with the opening verse from the above song.

Well I thought that I had seen most everything
And if jaded was a people, I’d be the king
So cold to what a brand-new day could bring
So icy cold to all the wonder that should be moving me


In the past year of my life, I have faced spiritual opposition and attack on a whole new level. I have seen so much compromise and deception in many different places and in many different people claiming Christ. I have seen more lies spun, more hate, more fake facades and more false peace than I ever care to see again.

In facing all of this, that definition of cynical hits my life’s attitude right on the nose.

Yet, is it possible I am simply viewing life through the wrong lens?

Looking at Mountain & Lake Through a Camera Lens
You got me on the edge
I am on the edge of my seat


As someone who works in film, this chorus is something to which I can very easily relate.
In storytelling, we aim to have our audience engaged all the way to the end. We aim to have them expectantly excited to see what is going to happen next.

So, is this my attitude in life? Am I on
“the edge of my seat” regarding what the Lord is doing and is going to do? Does the definition of expectant line up with how I am looking to the Lord in my life?

You are opening my eyes, Lord
Opening my eyes, Lord
To brand new possibilities


What if all the pain, difficulty and trials you and I face are an opportunity for the Lord to show Himself strong? To show us that He is able to do the impossible?
What if the crazy amount of compromise and decay in our culture that is hopelessly beyond repair, is a chance for God to show Himself able to do immeasurably more than all we can ask or imagine?
What if the dark night of the soul times in life are the King’s ways of setting up incredible, wonderful, beautiful endings to the tales He is writing in our lives as Christians?

What if God is really able to do the impossible in turning hearts and lives around?

So, am I cynical or expectant of what my God is able to do?
Are my eyes on self and my circumstances, or are they on the King and His immeasurable power?

God is able, I am not. I am weak, but my God is not.

So with the apostle Paul, I loudly concur.

"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen." - Ephesians 3:20-21

May the Lord strip me of my cynicalness and may I be filled with expectancy of what my God is going to do in my life and in the lives of others.

Lord, may I be on the edge of my seat with eyes fixed on You, the Master Storyteller. Amen.